Mumus – Rákdiagnózis

Mumusnál 3 éve diagnosztizálták a rákot.

Azóta túlvagyunk 3 műtéten. Minden műtét előtt nagyon izgultam és nem voltam benne biztos, hogy érdemes belemenni.
De minden műtét után, a lábadozás után jobban lett.

Egy ember esetében nem kérdés. Ha megbetegszik, akkor is meg kell próbálni mindenféle módszert.
Ilyenkor senki sem mondja, hogy “nem rossz neki?”, „minek megkínozni” vagy hogy “tényleg megéri?”

Amikor szóbakerül, hogy műtétre megyünk,mert emlődaganata volt a cicának, akkor ezeketa kérdéseket szinte mindig megkapom.
Neki nem jár a gyógyulás? A hosszú élet? A törődés?Mi a jobb? Az onkológus? Vagy jobb, ha elaltatják?

Jelenleg együtt küzdünk a rákkal, nap mint nap.

Mumus mostmár 15 és fél éve van velem.
Életerős és vidám cica. Máramennyire a mácskák vidámak.
Mufurc és kutakodó, sokszor gyanakvó, de mindemellett játékos és nagyon tud szeretni.

Amikor először jártunk az onkológián, nem is hitték elelsőre,hogy Mumus már ennyi idős.

Amikor megjött a szövettan, összetörve éreztem magam.
Sírtam és nem értettem, hogy miért történik ez.
Úgy éreztem magam, mint egy kisgyerek.

De végigvettük a lehetőségeket, és a harc mellett döntöttem.
Az első műtétje után csak feküdtem mellette napokig.
Hallgattam ahogy lélegzik, minden apró mozdulatát figyeltem.
A műtét előtt már lassabb volt, de ezt betudtam a korának.
Morcosabb és fáradékonyabb volt, de erről is azt gondoltam, hogy “hiszen ez egy öreg cica”.
De a műtét után, amikor már teljesen meggyógyult a seb, megint jól volt, fiatalos, éreterős, rosszalkodós cica lett újra.

Itt már tudtam, hogy a rák kezdte elvenni az erelyét.
Aztán észrevettem egy újabb csomót a hasfalán.
Akkor megint féltem és nagyon rosszul érintett, hogy lassan hozzá kell szokni a gondolathoz, hogy a cica, aki 12 éves koromtól velem van, lassan itt fog hagyni engem.
Figyelgettem a csomót és egy év után már elég nagy lett ahhoz, hogy újabb műtét következzen.

Az orvosok hihetetlenül kedvesek és segítőkészek voltak.
Jó hír volt, hogy nem képzett áttétet. A második műtét utáni szövettan is megerősítette, hogy nincs áttét. Egyszerűen csak korból adodóan hajlamos lett erre.

A második műtét után ugyan az történt. A lábadozás után sokkal jobban volt. Szaladgált, játszott és mindenbe belemászott mint régen.

De a gondolat ott volt. Hogy nem tudom mennyi ideig van még jól. Száz meg száz fényképet készítettem. Minden apró pillanatot megragadtam, amikor odabújt, vagy játszani lehetett vele. Minden nap összepuszilgatom és és magamba szívom az illatát, mert nem akarom, hogy később vegyem észre, hogy ezeket a pillanatokat már nem kapom vissza.

Aztán az onkológián kötöttünk ki.
Itt a doktornő

Amíg minden rendben van, azt hiszi az ember, hogy minden ráér. Hogy, annyi időnk van még, és csak halogatunk mindent, mert hiszen „lesz még lehetőség rá”, “majd holnap”.
De amikor a doktornő kimondta, hogy ez bizony beférkőzte magát a mindennapjainkba, megtanultam minden percet értékelni, minden együtt töltött percet.
És megtanultam, hogy amit igazán szeret az ember, az számít. Nincs idő, mindig, mindent addig kell megtenni, megélni, ameddig lehet.

Sokan mondták, hogy: „altasd el”, “mire jó a műtét”.
Azt hiszem nem értik, hogy nem csak “egy állat” nekem.

Ők sem akarnák, hogy más döntsön arról, hogy mikor van vége, és nem akarom elvennia szép napjait, amit még boldgoan tölthet.

Most kapja a gyógyszert. Most minden rendben van.

És nézem ahogy felugrik az ágyra és dorombolva elnyúlik rajta. Nézem ahogy felurgik az ölembe, felmegy az asztalra, végigszagolgat mindent és megpróbál ráfeküdni a laptopra, hogy csak vele foglalkozzak.
Most jól van és ez a lényeg.
Nézem, ahogy dorombolva az ölembe fekszi, ahogy játszik.

És csendben visszanyelem a könnyeimet,mert nem tudom meddig lesz még jól, de az tudom, hogy ott leszek  mellette a végéig.

 

My first song is done :)

Finally, I recorded my first song. I’ve been really looking forward to this moment. I’ve written a lot of songs, but I’ve never been able to compose and sing background music for her. I enjoyed this adventure incredibly.

It brought something new to me. I had to learn how to use music editing software and what to say. It wasn’t easy, but I managed it. 😊

I hope to be able to make the music foundation for my other music soon. Not a professional arrangement, not a high quality, no studio album, but I had a great desire.💕💕💕

Hope you like it too!😊

Titi Bag – My favorite bag

I have been thinking for two years about how to decrease most of the women’s bags in my wardrobe.

Like all women, of course, I also had a good few bags. Because one is good for larger papers, and the other is more comfortable or pretty.

So over the years, I got some bags.
I bought them all in the hope that it would be more comfortable or more thing fit in or fit me better.

Then I found a little bag that was super cool. Comfortable, hand-held, fit with everything I wore, but I always wished it was a little bigger.

I wore it until it was torn and worn.

Then came the idea. What if it was bigger? What if I ask somebody to make one. I looked around on the internet.

I decided to reuse the old bags and sew something else.
I will donate the bags in good condition.

I was sure of one thing. It has to made from leather. Because it can serve me until the rest of my life. And honestly, I dislike the many fashion bags. Two-three years and these torn and worn.

I know I know. Cruelty-free, vegan, etc.
Still, I felt it best not to buy another bag and just to put the burden on the environment.

I searched for a lot.

🌿 And I came across the Titi Leather Crafting website. 🌿

Bartyik Kata made my bag.
A very kind and immensely patient woman.💕

She helped me with how to make my favorite bag bigger and “Sophie-proof”.❤
All of the breaks in my old little bag have been well researched to make it last.

I’ve been using it for a year now. It’s good and beautiful still.
I love it very much!

Very useful, and I never want to change it.


The perpetual female problem has disappeared.😊
I no longer have an infinite universe inside my bag that I have no idea what’s in it.😂😂

 

 

An autumn day in nature

Autumn is my favorite season. I like the way it changes. Everything changes, the trees get naked and every fragrance changes day by day.

I like to walk in the fallen leaves. Jump in and throw them away.

I like it when my breath is visible in the cold air.
Candles in the dark. Look at how the birds sit in lines and then fly south.

And I like the smell of wet fallen leaves. In this season, the smell of dust is different even after the rain. Seeing the first rimy leaf on the cold ground. Autumn makes me happy.

I love to see the world around me change and slowly fall asleep to come back to life in the spring.

And it’s time to watch the birds on the patio or in the garden with a warm cup of tea.
And now is the time to pull on the warm wool socks.

I love the mosses under the fallen leaves.

And lichen branches all over the ground.

At this point, I feel complete peace and almost nothing exists. Neither the rush nor the things I should have to do. It feels a very safe feeling.

I like to look at the birds, so from the middle of autumn to the end of winter I make food for them.

I love the last strong sunbeams on my face. I want to enjoy every moment before winter comes and nobody knows when the sun will shine again. Waiting for days, weeks, months.

This is the last time I pick a dose of herbs.
Yarrow, Nettle, Oxalis….

It was one of the last days of autumn when I can collect herbs. Maybe the last time this year.
I’ll dry them like that, I’m getting ready for the winter.

 

4 Musical Instrument I fell in love with it immediately!

Sometimes I have the feeling that “I have to sit down and playing on the piano”.
sometimes this feeling came when I’m not home and of course, there is no piano nearby. 😂

But I always wanted to learn something else.
To learn something else or something that can “fit in your pocket”.

Well, now I’m going to show you which instruments I fell in love with completely! 💕

1. Hangdrum

His voice is something magical, certainly hard to learn, but worth it.
Of course, it is horror-priced, so unfortunately for a long time, I will only be in platonic love.

2 Ocarina

She has a beautiful, supernatural voice.
If I close my eyes I swear I see the wind dance.
It’s like a fairy is dancing or I don’t know, but I really like it.
And the bonus is that it fits in my pocket.

3 Kalimba

Kalimba is also “pocket-fit”. It’s not really fit in my pocket, but not a piano size.
I fell in love with her voice. It’s just adorable!

4 Cajon

I think it is a miracle drum 😂
and can make almost any rhythm and sound!


I just love it, I want it!

Oh, my goddess! 😍

 

Strong desire:

I just love it!

I think I have to save money again. Maybe it will be some years, but I think these worth it.
And after I need some years to learn these miracles! 💕

All About My Hair – I haven’t washed my hair with shampoo in half a year!

I haven’t washed my hair with chemicals in half a year.

Embarrassing topic!😂😂

Fragmentation, bran .. unquestionably since I live in the city.

Somewhere I drew a parallel in my head, but many just say “I don’t think so” when I shared that suspicion.
I still have the suspicion that there may be a lot to do with this, especially being an urban person.

(If you’re only interested in the end result, scroll down to “It’s finally over!”)😉

Failure and Failure:

At first, of course, I tried a simple shampoo change, but nothing.
I changed from a stronger shampoo to a gentler shampoo.
Failure
With a natural wrap for dry scalp, because my hair is not so greasy.
Failure
I looked for some other tips. I dried it another way. But nothing. These were just a failure.😢

Then came the baby shampoo (not the brand, but any shampoo for babies), if it’s good for babies, it will be good for me too, I thought. For a moment, it seemed to have improved, but it hadn’t been a success yet.

Then I experimented. What if I wash once a week, and what if I wash every two days?
I tried to see if anything changed.

Almost!
Then came homeopathy and herbs.
And Eggs and beer … yes, eggs and beer.🤣
At first, I thought my hair was going to stink or something, but it worked particularly well. It solved the problem perfectly.👍

Then I realized something else last summer.

When we went on vacation for the sea, I was a little worried.
I don’t like to travel with big packages and the one and a half week trip were several stops.
So I gave up the big tube of shampoo and took only a little with me. I didn’t really use it during the whole vacation because we were constantly in the sea.
And see a miracle.🧚‍♀️
I didn’t get dandruff from the saltwater.

Natural seawater washed, wind and heat dried my hair.
And my hair was clean, beautiful, deal that the dandruff was gone!

After all, the diagnosis was made.
My scalp is hypersensitive to anything that is not completely 100% natural.


 

ECOSIA – Environment friendly search engine

Plant real trees with just a few clicks!

Not long ago I found Ecosia, which is a search engine.
They have an incredibly valuable mission.
That is, at least 80 percent of the profit is spent on planting trees, where the biggest problem is: in Africa, in Burkina Faso.

We can’t go every day to pick up garbage or volunteer or live without Zero waste.
We can try, but honestly  it is not easy if the workplace or other reasons make it difficult.
But it is great to have tools in everyday life, and
I can help a little to the Earth on my average days.

That’s why ECOSIA has been created.

We can do something for the greener future of the Earth with using internet.
We help them with every search to make our planet greener.
What I am really happy about is that they have more than 7 million users and more and they planted 57 million trees. (Based on 2019 data)

Ecosia is easy to use, just like Google.
Using it in office work, I can also contribute a little to the brighter future.
Those who sit in front of their machines (for work or anything)
it is an opportunity to take part in environmental protection without changing their usual habits.

How does it work?
Just like Google, or other search engines, is generating revenue from edits and advertisements.
Our search on the internet, through advertisements and ranking of search results, is definitely making money for the search engine.
Then I looked closely, and with Ecosia we can be sure that 80 percent of the money earned from searches will turn out to be good.
As “Earth Warriors”, we take a little money from Microsoft and Google to give back to Earth through Ecosia, who now needs our support immensely.
Ecosia has full financial publicity, and tree planting donations can be downloaded for anyone from Ecosia Dropbox account.
Ecosia can be added quickly and easily to the search engine right from the start page.
I’ve already done this with a few clicks.
Since its launch in 2009, a total of 57,764,698 (May 15, 2019) trees were planted from the donations of Ecosia, which warmed my heart.
Until I think again, Earth’s trees are rapidly disappearing as a result of human intervention.
48 large soccer-field-sizes forest are cut per every minute,
this means more than 150,000 square kilometers per year
and I can’t tell you how many trees.
This means a little smaller area each year than Hungary (my home country).

I can only encourage you!
Use Ecosia!
Do it for the environment, try to be sustainable, even if you never reach the full Zero waste.
Try Recycling Everyday, so that we don’t have to lie to our grandchildren, “We tried everything.”